I've got it!
Finally I've got my ticket to Amsterdam. And I prepared carefully and with some time! I'll be there next Monday, so, being now 1 am on Sunday makes it: tomorrow!!
I still haven't got a job, haven't got an home... haven't book an hostel to stay for the first nights. But I've done worst things than these before, for example fall in love!
Amsterdam is a nice city... we will see if it gets in the way of my having a bad life as until now.